Now there is a song on my mind,4 days late by Karen Peck. It basically summarizes John 11. Lazarus was a man from Bethany and when the news reached Jesus that he was ill this was the reply , This sickness will not end in death but it is for the Lord to be glorified. Now I have had downs and near death moments in my illness but the fact that I’m still here testament to his word. Now some friends have told me how they have questioned the Lord, But why Lord? and understandably so.
Well I am a believer and I know that God’s time is not our time. Sometimes situations will happen and the Lord will give us the strength and hope to brave through because honestly I don’t know how I could have made it without the Lord on my side. So it’s not 4 days but rather 4 long years but the Lord is never late,he is always on time. This song was sent to me last year and my faint reply in a voicenote was, he’s still on time. So yes there maybe a battle of fear, fear of the unknown and anxiety comes in but he’s not 4 years late but he’s still on time.
Well like I always write, life is never a paved highway to dreams. Sometimes life will be uncertain or bring along icebergs thereby halting your life.
In reality paralysis is a dog. Your whole life comes crushing and you even don’t have any broken pieces to pick up and rebuild your life. Sometimes I communicate with friends and they commend my positivity in the Storm, my cynical self wants to answer,’ have I got an option?’ but then it is because in life when faced with battles, we have two options, to surrender and cry or to brave on and that’s what I am doing.
The reasons I started writing were to share my journey with friends who have been my pillar but to also encourage a soul who might think that life is unfair to them and I invite them to read my story with the expectations that they will be hopeful.
“Hope is a good thing perhaps the best of things and no good thing dies”-Stephen King, Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption: A Story from Different Seasons